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“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe

I HATE MEN That doesn’t mean I’m not physically attracted to them or I don’t desire to have sex with a man… but I DAMN Sure HATE MEN. When I was younger I remember having a best friend name Shaquasia (Her name has been changed for security purposes). Now you could say that me and Shaquasia was like night and day, we disagreed about EVERYTHING but one thing is for sure we had the same taste in guys. The guys Shaquasia thought was cute so did I , the guys I like Shaquasia would like & most likely she got them. Now as a best friend in those days I couldn’t be jealous or mad because I never had a boyfriend or wanted one. But one day this boy named Omar who was Shaquasia’s boyfriends friend at the time asked me out, & I was happy for once im about to have my 1^st boyfriend who’s like 14 & im 12… after 5 minutes of going out he broke up with me & laughed at me in my face while I cried, Shaquasia comforted me by saying “it wasn’t you Mills, it was him”.

Fast Forward 2 Years im 14 in a new school called Roberto Clemente MS , now I was known for getting more sidekicks then Paris Hilton I had the 3 the LX and the LX 09 but at the time I met a boy named Woo Woo I had a 3. I really liked this kid even though my best friend at the time named Sarah liked him too and he liked her back. But one day I grew balls and broke the girl code I asked Woo Woo out, like sho I aint have nothing to lose so why not right? I asked him out and he said yes, but right after I was telling him how happy I was he asked if he could use my sidekick all day… he was my boyfriend so yeah why not. We was going out for 5 periods (one period = 45 mins.) at lunch I was sitting with my girls and he was sitting with his guys then one of my guy friends came up to me and said “Woo Woo said its over” I had to show no emotion, I took my phone back and walked away. When I asked my guy friend why he broke up with me, he said “I don’t know I just said so you go out with Kamilah everybody laughed and he said to tell you its over”

So here I am insecure and hurt by those two major events of my life and when I finally came to the decision that I will look for a guy who can love and cherish me, It was disspointment after disappointment after another. If they didn’t want a relationship, they wasn’t interested in nothing but casual sex, if I wasn’t bipolar I was too attached. It was always “my fault” why I couldn’t keep a guy but now I realized its not ! & This is why I resent men, now they don’t want nothing but sex beauty and a person who can dress with the top name brands. Im sorry im not the lightskin beauty you want me to be im only human and I was born this way. Im smart and have a great personality doesn’t that matter?

To The MANY Males Who SHITTED ON ME

Thank you, You’ve opened my eyes to what I deserve and what I don’t and I damn sure don’t deserve a guy who can’t like me for me. If you can’t handle my insecurities, my needy moments, my jealous rages, but you can handle me when I’m all sweet and sensual and motherly then you don’t deserve me at all. SCREW YOU.

xOxo

Kenya West

Hey Guys , Its Kenya Here :* Changed The Sites Name To She Explains It All :) Hope You Guys Still Dig It .. we Even Redecorated ..

His Name iss B ..
One day me and my girl Ray was trading BBMs in class we were deleting boys adding them macking to them and all .. We came across this guy with dread "You shouldn't add him K, hes grown" .. #Pause , he has dreads and hes grown ?! I like the sound of that already !! "But K he is like 20" F-ck it an older guy is just what I need to get over Mike.
I add him and he was so friendly and nice , at the time Mike started to treat me like shit so I need a guy who can heal my wound almost. A month after talking I realize how much I enjoy his company via BBM and I develop feelings (yeah I know im a softy). But hes the "im not ready for relationship" type .. But im every bit determine to make him mines .. Me and B, 7 months later, is at a place where its like were in a relationship but were not. I hate that the most because f_ck I like him so much and were perfect together but what if society wont accept us . I mean I dont care and im pretty sure he doesnt but whatever.
How do I know that everything im doing for him will be worth it .. The sex, the constant texting, the gift I got him for Christmas (Take Care album by Drake) . I guess my biggest fear is that he wouldnt want me at the end. But I guess im a risk taker and im not a quitter so I dont give up until the bitter end.
Why are our generation boys so like not wanting to be in a relationship? I think its because they never had a dad to show them what a good relationship should look like with their mothers, or their moms never been the best example for them.
*$igh* it sucks when yu have someone thats good for you around but cant have them ..
Anyway Happy Holidays Love :* See You Soon
XOXO
KenYa <3

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