Thursday, September 2, 2010
Heartbreaks & 808s
flag. And honestly I do like him J with me however I am a complicated female. I played the "beat around the bush game" because I was scared of his thoughts on me. Most recently however, I realized the kind of person I was getting into. He's very TEMPERMENTAL. His temper will be his down fall. His honest and smooth talk is his upside however. I met him on Monday. I'VE NEVER Been sooooo HAPPY To See a Person In My LIFE & People he was AS GOOD as GOD He's like the BUNDLE of JOY ive been telling Regina About :] He was well spoken, sweet, funny, well dressed, didn't curse, didn't make me feel uncomfortable and all the AWkWARD silence we had I would stare at him and smile .. RED LIGHT !!!!
He made me feel like NO other boy has made me feel in my entireeee life and he was just the best. BUT with every boy comes a FLAW – this is why me and Kenya tell you these things. So you can be politically well aware of your SURROUNDINGS. As I went to Reginas House I Decide to Text Him. Casual convo, how are you blah blah blah what your doing blah blah blah etc. etc. yadadada. When I finally reached home I decided to text him:
Im Home BTW J
To which he responsed:
Okay.
EVERYTHING Seemed pretty normal and harmless until this happens.
Me: ".. I mean YOU as a PERSON Your PERFECT "
His Response: "Lol. Im a talk to you later"
That Ladies and Gentleman is where EVERYTHING Spiraled Out Of CONTROL. I waiteddd, prayed, and hung out. No text. I Let A DAY Go By before I Finally Texted him and it was .. Different. Usually Our Convos are PERFECT and Happy And LONG but his responses were short, dry, and meaningless. I thought maybe I said something wrong maybe it was me. But its not.. IDK folks. You think you meet Mr. Perfect when it comes down to it they always have a flaw. Regina says to give it time.. and maybe that's more healthy for me. Maybe that's how its suppose to be. But my thoughts and my heart is focused on him. I cant sleep without praying that MAYBE he wrote to me but I let my hopes up. I refuse to say im in love. As a form of Therapy I have deleted his number out of my phone so I wont be able to get my hands on it until he calls or text L
IVE GOT IT BAD ..
I Havent felt Kenya West presence in the last couple of days I can see her in my thought but I cant feel her..
KENYA WEST , PLEASE , EXPLAIN THIS TO ME .. IMY
What do you think ? Should I Really Wait Like Regina Said? Am I Trying to Forget Him Properly, or Am I Doing Too Much?
HOPELESSS WITHOUT KENYA ,
XOXO KAMILAH <3
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