Thursday, January 26, 2012
Poetry That Explains Me ALL !!
" Why I Love Jesus, But Hate Religion "
"Fuck I Look Like"
"Woman To Woman"
" Wife , Woman , Friend "
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Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Faded Friends
“I Love My Real Women, F_ck The Fake Hoes, I
Be Asking God Why He Even Make Those?”
-
‘Really Tho’ Fabolous
Lately
I’ve been losing massive friends, all my “best friends”, “brothers” people who I
thought I was really close to are vanishing out of thin air. But for some
reason I can’t bring myself to care? I don’t know why but I really just don’t
care.
A few
days ago me and one of my “besties” got in an argument, here’s how it all
started:
My
views on making fun of people are:
1.
Don’t make fun of those who can’t
defend themselves vocally
2.
Never go more than 5 minutes of
making fun of them
3.
Always tell them to their face
whether its nicely or mean, LET THEM KNOW
Now do
I ALWAYS follow them, not necessarily, but do I try to? YES. But these views
make my friends believe that I’m a hypocrite because “I always make fun of
people”. To call me a hypocrite is honestly
the WORST insult you can say to me (excluding racial/derogatory terms). And as
a FRIEND or a BESTFRIEND I expect you to either shut up or speak up. But she
chose to defend the person who called me a hypocrite and I found that very
hurtful. So from that day forward I chose not to speak to her anymore. Not only
because of this situation but I felt as though I friendship has ran its course
and that just happened to be the final straw for me. But she couldn’t let it
go. She wanted to make a scene and make me look like a fool!
IF I DON’T MENTION YOUR NAME
ONCE, I DON’T CARE FOR YOU !
At my
lunch period, these older girls who think they are better than others because
they wear name brand were there so I felt the need to vent about it to
Facebook. Someone showed her my rants and she basically said I spend all my
money on food, which has some truth to it. I do spend my money on food because I
love to eat. But I also spend my money on clothes and finer things in life.
That night I decided to express my dislike for her by calling her fake because
she is. Lets just say she says things about people who she hang out with that
she really shouldn’t J well whatever we exchanged
word & I said what I had to say. THAT CHAPTER OF MY LIFE IS CLOSED!
..
However a couple of days ago another one opened. One of my “brothers” from
middle school whom I had a crush on since 3rd grade to about 6th
grade texted in an angry rage because he heard that me and my best friend
Regina was talking about him. Whatever I say to one person is NO ONE ELSES
BUSINESS BUT ME AND THAT PERSON I DON’T CARE WHO ITS ABOUT. I have the right to
say whatever about whomever as long as what I say is true & whatever me and
Regina discusses is pure facts. He was saying thing in a disrespectful way so I
had to tell him off! Because of my slick mouth and quick thinking NOW he wants
to send people to beat me up (which I know will never happen), I don’t do well
with childish threats and that’s how I will always keep it. I’m pretty mature
for my age so the last thing I need is DRAMA from IRRELEVANT PEOPLE.
Lesson Learned: Chose Your
Friends and CIRCLE WISELY.
XoXo
Kamilah BJ
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Why We Need To Vote For Obama
Why We Need To
Re-Elect Obama
1.
Osama Bin Laden Was Killed Under His Administration
2.
Unemployment Rate is At 8.5% & Is Decreasing
3.
1.6 Million jobs has been created under his Administration
4.
22 Months of Jobs and Economic Growth under his
Administration
5.
The War in Iraq Was Ended Under His Administration
6.
DADT was repealed Under His Administration
7.
No Tax Hikes in 3 Years
8.
Racism in the GOP hasn’t been present under his
Administration
9.
He Had The Same Wife For 15 Years Without Cheating On Her
10.
GM is back as the #1
Automobile Manufacture
11.
Khaddafi, the Egyptian
Dictator, was ousted under His Administration
12.
He a recipient of the
Nobel Peace Prize while still being in office
13.
Mortgage is being
modified so home owners wont lose their homes
14.
Still Fighting for the
MIDDLE CLASS
15.
Bringing Equality
Amongst classes in terms of Taxes
16.
Affordable Healthcare
OBAMA
May Have Not Fixed Things As Fast Or Spectacular as we would have liked but hes
DOING SOMETHING & He’s got a lot done while being in office, & He Has SO MUCH MORE TO DO .. SO Lets All Give Him 4 More YEARS !!!!!!!!!!!!
She Explains It ALL is OFFICIALLY
SUPPORTING OBAMA/BIDEN for 2012 J
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Monday, January 16, 2012
My Resentment of Men
“I'm selfish, impatient and a little
insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But
if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at
my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe
― Marilyn Monroe
I
HATE MEN That doesn’t mean I’m not
physically attracted to them or I don’t desire to have sex with a man… but I DAMN
Sure HATE MEN. When I was younger I remember having a best friend name
Shaquasia (Her name has been changed for security purposes). Now you could say
that me and Shaquasia was like night and day, we disagreed about EVERYTHING but
one thing is for sure we had the same taste in guys. The guys Shaquasia thought
was cute so did I , the guys I like Shaquasia would like & most likely she
got them. Now as a best friend in those days I couldn’t be jealous or mad
because I never had a boyfriend or wanted one. But one day this boy named Omar
who was Shaquasia’s boyfriends friend at the time asked me out, & I was
happy for once im about to have my 1st boyfriend who’s like 14 &
im 12… after 5 minutes of going out he broke up with me & laughed at me in
my face while I cried, Shaquasia comforted me by saying “it wasn’t you Mills,
it was him”.
Fast Forward 2 Years im 14 in a new school
called Roberto Clemente MS , now I was known for getting more sidekicks then
Paris Hilton I had the 3 the LX and the LX 09 but at the time I met a boy named
Woo Woo I had a 3. I really liked this kid even though my best friend at the
time named Sarah liked him too and he liked her back. But one day I grew balls
and broke the girl code I asked Woo Woo out, like sho I aint have nothing to
lose so why not right? I asked him out and he said yes, but right after I was
telling him how happy I was he asked if he could use my sidekick all day… he
was my boyfriend so yeah why not. We was going out for 5 periods (one period =
45 mins.) at lunch I was sitting with my girls and he was sitting with his guys
then one of my guy friends came up to me and said “Woo Woo said its over” I had
to show no emotion, I took my phone back and walked away. When I asked my guy
friend why he broke up with me, he said “I don’t know I just said so you go out
with Kamilah everybody laughed and he said to tell you its over”
So here I am insecure and hurt by those
two major events of my life and when I finally came to the decision that I will
look for a guy who can love and cherish me, It was disspointment after disappointment
after another. If they didn’t want a relationship, they wasn’t interested in
nothing but casual sex, if I wasn’t bipolar I was too attached. It was always “my
fault” why I couldn’t keep a guy but now I realized its not ! & This is why I resent men, now they don’t want nothing but
sex beauty and a person who can dress with the top name brands. Im sorry im not
the lightskin beauty you want me to be im only human and I was born this way.
Im smart and have a great personality doesn’t that matter?
To
The MANY Males Who SHITTED ON ME
Thank
you, You’ve opened my eyes to what I deserve and what I don’t and I damn sure don’t
deserve a guy who can’t like me for me. If you can’t handle my insecurities, my
needy moments, my jealous rages, but you can handle me when I’m all sweet and
sensual and motherly then you don’t deserve me at all. SCREW YOU.
xOxo
Kenya West
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Friday, January 13, 2012
Random Thought #1
Why is it so hard to live now?
Why is it so hard to find love but easy to find sex?
Why do people live for God but never seen or heard him?
Why can I lose weight or stick to my diet?
Why do I have to be slim to be healthy? Why cant I be thick and healthy?
Why does B have to be such a jerk?
Why cant B love me like I want him to?
Why ..
Why is it so hard to find love but easy to find sex?
Why do people live for God but never seen or heard him?
Why can I lose weight or stick to my diet?
Why do I have to be slim to be healthy? Why cant I be thick and healthy?
Why does B have to be such a jerk?
Why cant B love me like I want him to?
Why ..
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I’m Not Alien, I’m Just Dark skin..
“I Knew This Girl That Was So Dark, She Was
Dark than You, Kamilah”
I never
really paid attention to my skin complexion until I was in the 8th
grade and my dean asked me “Kamilah, are you comfortable with your skin color.”
I never really paid attention to race either, I just knew that I was Kamilah
and I liked rock music watching MTV and dancing like I have no rhythm what so
ever (I still don’t but who cares). Point is it wasn’t until I go older that my
skin complexion or even the fact that I am a black female became the topic of
discussion.
Lately
I’ve been getting a lot of... Chat about me being dark skinned which has been
bugging me.
Why should my skin
complexion separate me from other people?
And its not really just me, a lot of males in
New York City find light skinned females very attractive and they even take it
a step further and have #TeamLightskin vs. #TeamDarkskin and that makes females
insecure (I don’t care what you say it does make you insecure) by asking
whether they are brown skin or dark skin. & a female will be damned if you
dare to utter the word “your dark skin” to her. She will insist that shes brown
skin. Whatever happened to the days where we were all happy that were black? It’s
so hard to find people who haven’t been brain washed with the idea that if your
dark skin you’re not accepted, & if your light skin you’re better then
everyone that’s not your complexion
Wake UPPPPPPPPPP!
Stop the ignorance
We
are all black we are all brothers and sisters and we shouldn’t be divided by
skin complexion, we should be united under the idea that we are all black and
our ancestors are from Africa (yes idc what you said if your Black YOUR ANCESTORS CAME FROM AFRICA!!!)
XOXO
Kamilah Badiane
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Thursday, January 12, 2012
Hey Stupid Girl, I Like You
_hi
everyone :]
So
I got this new crush her name is .. for
security purposes ima call her Hazel. Now Hazel is one of the cutest girls I know
shes funny and slim lightskin (ya know skin color never mattered to me) but she’s
basically my type. The only thing is that I knew Hazel since I was 14 as a
friend. So when I told Hazel that I liked her on New Year’s Day it was pretty
shocking for her. I really hope me and Hazel work out , but im scared I’ve
become too sprung too fast with no assurance that she’s feeling me #shrug OH
WEELL ^.^
xOxO
Kamilah J
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