She Explains It ALL

Hola mi amores, come esta?

Its yours truly KENYA back with my bullshit. Idk if Kamilah told you or not, but a couple of weeks ago she went to her first concert (yaaaay). She went to an OFWGKTA concert. Now if you are completely oblivious to life itself, OFWGKTA stands for Odd Future Wolf Gang Kill Them All. It’s a super rap/skater group based in California started by this awesome guy called Tyler the Creator. In this group contains many rappers, singer, producers and skaters.

My first encounter with Odd Future started last year around this time when I was chilling with my guy friends discussing music. Now I’m just a music FANATIC ask me about hip hop and rap and I’ll make it a huge discussion. My friend Goes:

“Hey Milah, You heard this new album my Tyler the Creator called Goblin”

My reply “Uhm , know I don’t even know who that is”

He just looked at me with a blank stare and asked “What rock do you live under?”

So I went home with that on the back of my mind and proceeded with life carelessly (as usual). One morning while I’m getting ready for school, and was blasting MTV, I heard this dope beat. The beat was unusual and then I turn to the screen to see this black and white screen with a guy wrapping on a stool in a supreme hat playing with a roach. He eats the roach throw it up his eyes goes black and then he hangs himself. But besides that his rap was tuff, and I had to hear more so I looked up his lyrics and found the song “Yonkers” which I fell in love with. I found Tyler the Creator , so I download his album fell in love with it.

Months after listening to OF mixtapes albums and watching their videos I became obessesd with the group, they’re amazing and talented individuals that are just like us, non conforming teens that don’t need society to tell them that they “fit in or belong”

Check them out, Here are some of my faves:

The Internet - Cocaine

Every woman has her breaking point. But I don’t even know where mines begin or ends. I’ve been through so many ups and downs it’s like I never learn. Last week (the week before if memory serves me right) I broke things off with B. It was bound to fail I should’ve known, but it was for the best. I also became friends with Hazel, after weeks of persuading her to be in a relationship with me. Things never really work in my favor though. While B was telling me “I’m not ready for a relationship” he was in a RELATIONSHIP WITH ANOTHER FEMALE. Yes I got played, yes I was hurt but what can a girl do? Then Hazel was telling me we should “be friends” yet she’s over talking to the next girl.

I’m not sure why I continuously get played like a fiddle but I don’t really have time or strength to question why. So my fellow readers the characters Hazel and B are dead , I would like to announce a new character . . KB .

KB is a girl I knew since my freshman year of High School, now knowing me I can be very naïve and blind but I don’t know why I never found her attractive until this year. After some conversation me and KB became close and I had to tell my BFF about her.

While KB flirted I thought we were just carrying on with conversation. My BFF had to slap some sense into me to tell me that the girl wanted me. I decided to give her a chance and I felt as though we clicked , there was an apparent bond between us that I liked. BUT AS ALWAYS WITH ME THERE WAS A CATCH. Now my friends think I should just play the friend role be the one she cries on  but I don’t like wasting time and lord knows my time is gonna be wasted . . idkkk man

“I Love My Real Women, F_ck The Fake Hoes, I Be Asking God Why He Even Make Those?”

Lately I’ve been losing massive friends, all my “best friends”, “brothers” people who I thought I was really close to are vanishing out of thin air. But for some reason I can’t bring myself to care? I don’t know why but I really just don’t care.

A few days ago me and one of my “besties” got in an argument, here’s how it all started:

My views on making fun of people are:

Now do I ALWAYS follow them, not necessarily, but do I try to? YES. But these views make my friends believe that I’m a hypocrite because “I always make fun of people”.  To call me a hypocrite is honestly the WORST insult you can say to me (excluding racial/derogatory terms). And as a FRIEND or a BESTFRIEND I expect you to either shut up or speak up. But she chose to defend the person who called me a hypocrite and I found that very hurtful. So from that day forward I chose not to speak to her anymore. Not only because of this situation but I felt as though I friendship has ran its course and that just happened to be the final straw for me. But she couldn’t let it go. She wanted to make a scene and make me look like a fool!

IF I DON’T MENTION YOUR NAME ONCE, I DON’T CARE FOR YOU !

At my lunch period, these older girls who think they are better than others because they wear name brand were there so I felt the need to vent about it to Facebook. Someone showed her my rants and she basically said I spend all my money on food, which has some truth to it. I do spend my money on food because I love to eat. But I also spend my money on clothes and finer things in life. That night I decided to express my dislike for her by calling her fake because she is. Lets just say she says things about people who she hang out with that she really shouldn’t  J well whatever we exchanged word & I said what I had to say. THAT CHAPTER OF MY LIFE IS CLOSED!

.. However a couple of days ago another one opened. One of my “brothers” from middle school whom I had a crush on since 3^rd grade to about 6^th grade texted in an angry rage because he heard that me and my best friend Regina was talking about him. Whatever I say to one person is NO ONE ELSES BUSINESS BUT ME AND THAT PERSON I DON’T CARE WHO ITS ABOUT. I have the right to say whatever about whomever as long as what I say is true & whatever me and Regina discusses is pure facts. He was saying thing in a disrespectful way so I had to tell him off! Because of my slick mouth and quick thinking NOW he wants to send people to beat me up (which I know will never happen), I don’t do well with childish threats and that’s how I will always keep it. I’m pretty mature for my age so the last thing I need is DRAMA from IRRELEVANT PEOPLE.

Lesson Learned: Chose Your Friends and CIRCLE WISELY.

XoXo

Kamilah BJ

Why We Need To Re-Elect Obama

OBAMA May Have Not Fixed Things As Fast Or Spectacular as we would have liked but hes DOING SOMETHING & He’s got a lot done while being in office, & He Has SO MUCH MORE TO DO .. SO Lets All Give Him 4 More YEARS !!!!!!!!!!!!

She Explains It ALL is OFFICIALLY SUPPORTING OBAMA/BIDEN for 2012 J

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe

I HATE MEN That doesn’t mean I’m not physically attracted to them or I don’t desire to have sex with a man… but I DAMN Sure HATE MEN. When I was younger I remember having a best friend name Shaquasia (Her name has been changed for security purposes). Now you could say that me and Shaquasia was like night and day, we disagreed about EVERYTHING but one thing is for sure we had the same taste in guys. The guys Shaquasia thought was cute so did I , the guys I like Shaquasia would like & most likely she got them. Now as a best friend in those days I couldn’t be jealous or mad because I never had a boyfriend or wanted one. But one day this boy named Omar who was Shaquasia’s boyfriends friend at the time asked me out, & I was happy for once im about to have my 1^st boyfriend who’s like 14 & im 12… after 5 minutes of going out he broke up with me & laughed at me in my face while I cried, Shaquasia comforted me by saying “it wasn’t you Mills, it was him”.

Fast Forward 2 Years im 14 in a new school called Roberto Clemente MS , now I was known for getting more sidekicks then Paris Hilton I had the 3 the LX and the LX 09 but at the time I met a boy named Woo Woo I had a 3. I really liked this kid even though my best friend at the time named Sarah liked him too and he liked her back. But one day I grew balls and broke the girl code I asked Woo Woo out, like sho I aint have nothing to lose so why not right? I asked him out and he said yes, but right after I was telling him how happy I was he asked if he could use my sidekick all day… he was my boyfriend so yeah why not. We was going out for 5 periods (one period = 45 mins.) at lunch I was sitting with my girls and he was sitting with his guys then one of my guy friends came up to me and said “Woo Woo said its over” I had to show no emotion, I took my phone back and walked away. When I asked my guy friend why he broke up with me, he said “I don’t know I just said so you go out with Kamilah everybody laughed and he said to tell you its over”

So here I am insecure and hurt by those two major events of my life and when I finally came to the decision that I will look for a guy who can love and cherish me, It was disspointment after disappointment after another. If they didn’t want a relationship, they wasn’t interested in nothing but casual sex, if I wasn’t bipolar I was too attached. It was always “my fault” why I couldn’t keep a guy but now I realized its not ! & This is why I resent men, now they don’t want nothing but sex beauty and a person who can dress with the top name brands. Im sorry im not the lightskin beauty you want me to be im only human and I was born this way. Im smart and have a great personality doesn’t that matter?

To The MANY Males Who SHITTED ON ME

Thank you, You’ve opened my eyes to what I deserve and what I don’t and I damn sure don’t deserve a guy who can’t like me for me. If you can’t handle my insecurities, my needy moments, my jealous rages, but you can handle me when I’m all sweet and sensual and motherly then you don’t deserve me at all. SCREW YOU.

xOxo

Kenya West

“I Knew This Girl That Was So Dark, She Was Dark than You, Kamilah”

I never really paid attention to my skin complexion until I was in the 8^th grade and my dean asked me “Kamilah, are you comfortable with your skin color.” I never really paid attention to race either, I just knew that I was Kamilah and I liked rock music watching MTV and dancing like I have no rhythm what so ever (I still don’t but who cares). Point is it wasn’t until I go older that my skin complexion or even the fact that I am a black female became the topic of discussion.

Lately I’ve been getting a lot of... Chat about me being dark skinned which has been bugging me.

Why should my skin complexion separate me from other people?

And its not really just me, a lot of males in New York City find light skinned females very attractive and they even take it a step further and have #TeamLightskin vs. #TeamDarkskin and that makes females insecure (I don’t care what you say it does make you insecure) by asking whether they are brown skin or dark skin. & a female will be damned if you dare to utter the word “your dark skin” to her. She will insist that shes brown skin. Whatever happened to the days where we were all happy that were black? It’s so hard to find people who haven’t been brain washed with the idea that if your dark skin you’re not accepted, & if your light skin you’re better then everyone that’s not your complexion

Wake UPPPPPPPPPP!

Stop the ignorance

We are all black we are all brothers and sisters and we shouldn’t be divided by skin complexion, we should be united under the idea that we are all black and our ancestors are from Africa (yes idc what you said if your Black YOUR ANCESTORS CAME FROM AFRICA!!!)

XOXO

Kamilah Badiane

_hi everyone :]

So I got this new crush her name is ..  for security purposes ima call her Hazel. Now Hazel is one of the cutest girls I know shes funny and slim lightskin (ya know skin color never mattered to me) but she’s basically my type. The only thing is that I knew Hazel since I was 14 as a friend. So when I told Hazel that I liked her on New Year’s Day it was pretty shocking for her. I really hope me and Hazel work out , but im scared I’ve become too sprung too fast with no assurance that she’s feeling me #shrug OH WEELL  ^.^

xOxO

Kamilah J