Letters To B ..
Dear B,
I've known you for 7 months and I I've grown to like you in a way where its just so complicated .. Its TOO complicated. The time, the friends with benefits, the night when i'm with you play fighting, the sex. When i think about us its just too complexed to even think about.
Maybe I love him, should I tell him? But what what if he doesn't love me what if he gets angry at me or scared. FUCK! Will I even have the balls to say HEY, heres this letter I love you be mines. Hell No I WON'T , fuck it let me stop procasinating and write this letter.
This is shit he knows already, He definitely doesn't want to hear this again. OMG WHY IS THIS SO HARD WHY AM I MAKING IT SO COMPLEXED, Just flat out SAY IT, Hey B.. I Like You Alot The Reason why im MAD @ you all the time because you dont want to be with me but you always want to write me and see you and sh_t.
Lately, I've been mad with you, its because I really like you and you say you like me so why can't we be together. "Because im NOT Ready", how can you not be ready to be with someone but always want to see me, always wanna talk to me, and do stuff couples do. Fuck The Commitment. Its not hard to not have sex with everyone its not like your just cutting off everyone in the world.
This is totally pointless :( ,
IDKKKKKK IDKKKKKKK FUCKKKKK >:(
Relationship = Stress
Am I REALLY READY FOR A RELATIONSHIPP .. ?
Or is my loneliness burning for someone to fill the emptiness ...
xOxO
Kamilah <3
Kenya's BEST OF 2011 :D
Kenya HERE
HERES MY BEST OF 2011 LIST =]
Best Album of The YEAR
BEST MIXTAPE OF THE YEAR
BEST NEW ARTIST OF THE YEAR
SONG OF THE YEAR
MOVIE OF THE YEAR
VOILAAAAAA ,<3
Seeee YA 2012 ,
xOxO Kenya
New Year Resolution '12
Hey everyone :*
Kamilah here and i've been thinking .. I want to have New Years Resolution for 12' because in 11' I feeel like ive matured and went through enough to make some new changes in my life, boys, girls, friends, college, weight loss, dieting, habits the works !
I believe thats new years give you a new rap sheet to work and build on , so next year ima try to work on mines. I want to burry all my mistakes and refocus my focus on brighter horizons. Idk lately i've been thinking, but blaah <3 Me & Kenya will be posting our New Years Resolution UP SOON! Also the best of _____ 2011 list :) LOOK Out :*
XOXO
Kamilah -
MerryChristmas&HappyNEWYears
Just want to be the 1st here at She Explains It All <3 to Wish You ALLL A Merry & Jolly Christmas , Appreciate Your Love Ones & Family Members Never Forget Who You Are & What You Stand For LIFE IS TOOOO SHORT FOOOL :*
_ xOxO
KeNYa & kAMiLah <3
Heads over heels
Hey Guys , Its Kenya Here :* Changed The Sites Name To She Explains It All :) Hope You Guys Still Dig It .. we Even Redecorated ..
His Name iss B ..
One day me and my girl Ray was trading BBMs in class we were deleting boys adding them macking to them and all .. We came across this guy with dread "You shouldn't add him K, hes grown" .. #Pause , he has dreads and hes grown ?! I like the sound of that already !! "But K he is like 20" F-ck it an older guy is just what I need to get over Mike.
I add him and he was so friendly and nice , at the time Mike started to treat me like shit so I need a guy who can heal my wound almost. A month after talking I realize how much I enjoy his company via BBM and I develop feelings (yeah I know im a softy). But hes the "im not ready for relationship" type .. But im every bit determine to make him mines .. Me and B, 7 months later, is at a place where its like were in a relationship but were not. I hate that the most because f_ck I like him so much and were perfect together but what if society wont accept us . I mean I dont care and im pretty sure he doesnt but whatever.
How do I know that everything im doing for him will be worth it .. The sex, the constant texting, the gift I got him for Christmas (Take Care album by Drake) . I guess my biggest fear is that he wouldnt want me at the end. But I guess im a risk taker and im not a quitter so I dont give up until the bitter end.
Why are our generation boys so like not wanting to be in a relationship? I think its because they never had a dad to show them what a good relationship should look like with their mothers, or their moms never been the best example for them.
*$igh* it sucks when yu have someone thats good for you around but cant have them ..
Anyway Happy Holidays Love :* See You Soon
XOXO
KenYa <3
About US :P
Head Blogger(s) – Kamilah Badiane
Kenya West
Kamilah Badiane
Born on February 21st, Kamilah isn't your typical African American woman. She's quirky, shy, but very smart and sharp witted. She grew up in The South Bronx along with many of the characters she discusses. She's a firm believer in Pan-Africanism, Marcus Garvey, Malcolm X, and other Pro Black figures. She loves hip-hop with Kenya and is just trying to find her place in society. She currently lives in Brooklyn & goes to school in Manhattan
Kenya West
Though just an alter ego, Kenya is very much real. Kenya was born on June 26th. Opposite of Kamilah, Kenya is wild, outgoing, and very opinioned. She doesn't care for anyone's' feelings or beliefs about her, Kenya DOES WHAT KENYA WANTS. Along with Kamilah, Kenya was raised in The South Bronx but she grew up in the streets. She's very wise when it comes to the streets and don't let anyone tell her nothing. She loves hip-hop and looks up to Kanye West whom she believe is her father (& you can't tell her otherwise).
ENJOY THE TALES, IDEAS, and OPINIONS OF KENYA WEST & KAMILAH BADIANE BUT HERE . . .
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Morning Commutes
Every morning you can find me taking thr L train to union square .. Then I transfer to the E or C where people run for a train thats nine time out of ten too packed for them to fit in ..
Idk welcome to my AM commute ..
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The Fruits Of Our Labor <3
I SAID TELL ME WHAT REALLY GOING ON KENYA BACK IN THIS THING IM READY WHATS HAPPENINNNNN!
Thought I forgot about you little devils? Nope not the slightest bit<3 Me and Kamilah have been studying in school and working towards the end of the semester diligently so we can get back to you faithful readersJ
Since Kenya Explains It All Have Been Under Hiatus a couple of things have been going on. My brother and sister in law had a baby (YAAY IM AN AUNTIE :D) . & yesterday when I met him, I was excited and happy that I met my 3 month old bundle of joy. I love him like sooo much and that's what makes everything worthhhh anything J
Anywhooo folks : ) MUSIC COMING UP SOOON :-* And U'll Hear More From Me Later <3